Hello Eysi, please let me welcome you to the forums, I was just about to log off but I had to see what you wrote.
The comment is short which is good, but it doesn't need to say how much you are feeling so lonely, and that's how I feel so sorry for you.
It takes courage to post your first comment, because there may have been times when you had typed a long comment, then edited, deleted it and started once again, don't worry that's how I felt years ago and even now I have to edit my comment.
From what you have told us it appears as though you have depression, although I'm not qualified to diagnose you, once you've had depression yourself for so long, you tend to be able to pick it up when someone is feeling down.
Something awful has happened to you, causing to feel this way, it's something we understand because all of us have had our own type of depression and even those who are still suffering are fortunate enough to still help out, that's jhard for them but we appreciate their time.
We don't criticise anybody and if you like you could visit 'The Cafe', there people try and bring in other topics, but at the moment we need to help you.
If you like you can tell us just a little more about what's happened to you, and remember we feel truly sorry for you.
Best wishes.
Geoff.
