Hey everyone,
My name is Jay and I've been fighting depression and anxiety for 8 years. I decided to see a doctor last year who recommended an antidepressant and that I see a therapist. I did this for about 6 months before I ran into a roadblock. This came in the form of weed and alcohol. Recently, I chose to give up both after realising how destructive it was, and how badly it was affecting my mental health. I stopped taking my medication without seeing my therapist or my doctor, and it was not a good idea.
I have good news! 2 weeks ago I saw my therapist again. I started a a higher dosage and I'm already starting to see improvements. Mainly not feeling sad all the time for no reason, and not feeling anxious all the time in every conversation. Also not thinking about my every mistake EVER was like a fog had lifted. It's good to feel that this medication doesn't magically fix every problem, but raises the floor of my depression to feel so much less overwhelming.
I feel like I can do so much more now. I feel like I know how I can recover from this, how I can move on from what was holding me back before. I feel like I can deal with stress better now. I know that I can do this, I want to do it so badly. I'm really serious this time and I want my life back! I want to feel genuine happiness again, I want to enjoy life as much as possible. Anyway, thank you for reading this whoever you are. It means a lot to have a support network even if I don't know you.
