I don’t know what’s going on

[Renee09]

My name is Renee and I’m 23 and live in a small country town in Queensland.
I don’t really know what’s going on but lately I’ve just been generally struggling to cope with day to day activities, getting out of bed, showering, house chores, going to work.

I work in a busy accounting firm and it can be quite stressful at times. At the moment I can’t focus, I feel like everybody at work hates me and I’m making mistakes and receiving feedback but I keep taking this personally so I end up sitting at my desk and crying most of the day.

I try to spend time with my friends but I get this same feeling around them as if they don’t want me around or I’m just a burden.

I was seeing a guy who I was really comfortable with and he was very supportive but he has just recently broken things off with me because he has feelings for my best friend so I feel like I just have nobody and I’m so alone as I live by myself. I really don’t know what to do. I feel like I could just disappear and nobody would notice.

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

Hi Renee and welcome to the forums, from all the way over here in WA 🙂

It sounds like you've got a few different things you're struggling with at the moment, and you could benefit from having a chat to someone. Would you feel comfortable visiting your gp for a chat? They will be able to refer you to a professional who can help you work through what's going on and get things back on track. If you'd feel more comfortable doing so, you can also call the Beyond Blue helpline and they can direct you to help in your area.

Sometimes our mind can tell us funny things that aren't true, and with help from a professional we can find new ways of looking at things.

Sorry you're having a hard time. Love to hear more from you. I'm always around for a chat 🙂

Katy

[Gambit87]

Hi Renee,

What katy said!

When we are going through a rough patch - our mind tells us things that are not true! I used to (still do sometimes) believe that I was not a good person and I didn't deserve to have friends or to be liked etc. I also used to think 'maybe I should just become a hermit and disappear - no one would notice'. I cannot begin to describe how further away from the truth that is.

You are valued and you are worth it!

[Renee09]

Hi Guys

Thank you for responding this is my first time ever posting on here and honestly wasn’t expecting a response.

The idea of talking to somebody has been sitting with me for a while now but I don’t have a regular doctor that I see so I’m worried that if I see someone they may not take me seriously or I won’t know what to say.

I’m also not good at talking to people face to face, I’m really shy and get really nervous especially around people I don’t know so I feel like I will end up just sitting there and not saying anything.

I know I need to do something or talk to somebody because this feeling and the thoughts I keep having are just getting worse but i don’t know where to start

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

Hi again

I know what you mean. It can definitely be hard to speak these things out loud, but totally worth it. Just remember that a gp would have heard these things before, it's not new to them. You can also usually look online at profiles of your local gp's and see who specializes in mental health. Some of us on the forums take the approach of writing things down on a piece of paper and just handing it over to a professional, if it feels easier that way. I've also written a note on my phone and showed that 🙂

If it really feels like a step too far at this point, maybe start with the phone service or chat line so you're not face to face. How does that sound? Hope I've been helpful. Just remember that experiencing mental distress is really normal, it happens to one in five of us at any one time.

Things can get better, it just takes that first brave step. Love to hear more from you. Let me know how you go.

Katy

[mocha delight]

Renee your not alone I’ve got a regular gp who I’m seeing this Friday which I’m worried she won’t take me seriously and I still don’t know what to say.