Hi....

[BlueMatters]

I am new here and I have suffered with depression for 12 years now. I was in a very bad place in the first few years with it, received a lot of help and managed to control most of the time. But over the last 2 years i find myself back having bad thoughts and getting snappy and aggressive very spontaneously. It makes me sick to my stomach that I cant control this myself and I need help but if I don't I fear i'm going to lose many years with my family that could of turned out better. I don't really know how this forum works but just writing it all down is a big step.

[CMF]

Hi BlueMatters and welcome,

Well done for coming here. You've come to a great place for support and a place to vent. Writing things down is a great idea, not just here but in general. write things freely and then put it away. when you're ready throw it out. It really works.

Other than this have you ben to your GP? How did you go about receiving help in the past? Has something triggered you depression, major life changes perhaps? What's happening in our life at the moment?

I'm sure more people will read your post and respond.

Hope to hear back from you.

cmf

[PurpleNess]

Hi Im also new, this is my 1st post. Ive been diagnosed with depression last Friday..but its somthing i know ive had for several years...finally admitted it and told my other half and GP. Its a scary time and im glad i found this forum.

Hoping you get the help and support you need. Totally get the irritable and snappy...and angry. May be both move forward! Wishing you the best.

[Little_K]

Welcome Bluematters.

I too am fairly new to this posting thing, thanks for sharing with us. I have spent a lot of time reading others posts and there is some wonderful helpfuk advice.

Well done for writing it down, I find it a massive step to write or tell someone anything about myself too, it's like having to actually believe it yourself. So well done for being so brave to take that step.

i know I haven't actukky offered any advice I am sure there are plenty of awesome people to do that I just wanted to say how proud and wonderful it is that you took that step and you are not alone

[Kazzl]

Hi Bluematters, Guest 5590 and Little K - a big welcome to beyondblue to you all. Reaching out for support isn't an easy thing to do, so well done all of you for posting.

This is a very safe place to talk with others who have gone through or are going through similar experiences, so please feel free to open up as much as you are comfortable with.

Guest 5590 - if you want to create your own thread so people can respond to you, have a look at the Welcome board and maybe post an introduction.

Take a good look around the forums and join in wherever you feel comfortable, or keep posting here. Also have a good read around the resources on the main site. There's some excellent information there that can help you understand more of what you're experiencing, and help you talk to family and friends and doctors etc.

It's good to have you all here with us and I look forward to reading more from you.

Very best

Kaz

[BlueMatters]

Thanks to everyone who took the time to reply.

I haven't been to my GP yet. Last time I beat it through the help of a psychiatrist to start with all the pills that made me horrible, so I made a decision to exercise and that really helped out. So much so that it is actually what i do now for a job.

This last 16 months has been tiring and hard. Everything from losing my business and my job within months of each other, having my third beautiful baby, breaking my arm and rib, losing my dog in a horrific car accident, nearly losing mum through one of her 6 strokes shes had in the last 8 months, opening another business, having my house cleaned out along with my car the other week and having 2 separate surgeries.

I'm finding it really hard to exercise and push myself through those boundaries again, as it feels like my life source is out of energy and I sure as hell don't want those pills again! I feel all out of help.

[blondguy]

hey blue

Paul here (20 years depression/with meds and back on top)

you have been through way too much Blue....in just 16 months!....Im really sorry

you have more strength than I do using excerise as a healer, even though I am fit....I just couldnt do it...but thats just me 🙂

Here for you Blue

Paul