Hello Sharon and welcome,
You've written about experiencing low self esteem, feeling alone and feeling nervous which made me feel awful that we have somehow missed seeing your post. I hope you come back online to read this because I want to reassure you that you are important and we are listening. I'm sorry if the slow response made you feel worse.
So much of what you've written about is completely relatable! Most of us here have been in the awful 'waiting for an appointment' stage and my goodness it is tough.
What matters most is that you're here trying and asking how to support yourself. It takes guts to post and to ask for support. This is a very accepting place I've found.
In the anxiety section there is a pinned thread about self help techniques. I wonder if you might find it useful to read and even join in there too?
It is always lovely to see someone say they want to support others too. Writing to others I've found is a great way to find your feet in these forums (it is what worked for me anyway). It is important to remember though that your needs are equal to everyone else's so it is absolutely ok to post about yourself as well.
I look forward to hearing more of your story if you want to share.
Nat
