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Cherry717 · ‎08-04-2018

Hey there. I dont know if what I feel is something to be worried about or if it will just go away with time. Im just anxious almost all the time. Im always either thinking about the past or worrying about the future. And the present just feels sad and dull. I wake up everyday trying to be positive and just push away the sad depressing feeling. But no matter what i do in the back of my mind i just have all these sad thoughts and worry running in my head. I just cant seem to shut it off. I have no one to talk to. And I dont think my family could understand. Because i feel like what im worrying about isnt something to be bothered about but i just feel hurt and cant seem to stop worrying. I dont know if what i have expressed here makes any sense. But i really feel like im struggling to stay happy and positive and im scared its going to affect the quality of my life and the people that love me. I dont know what to do.

geoff · ‎08-04-2018

Hi Cherry, and can I welcome you to the site.

Being anxious most of the time may or may not disappear, it depends on your circumstances, the trouble is if you don't know why you are feeling like this or even if you do then it would benefit you to visit your doctor.

What you are worrying about is certainly a concern, because it's affecting your daily life.

From what you have told us you maybe having 'intrusive thoughts' which occur when someone is anxious or whether they may have OCD.

The same feelings are what I have suffered from, but I have OCD, but please book an appointment with your doctor who may suggest you see a psychologist.

Don't be afraid to tell them what you are thinking, if you don't, then they can't help you, we want you to enjoy your quality of life.

Hope to hear back from you.

Geoff.

quirkywords · ‎08-04-2018

Cherry,

I too want to welcomeyou to the forum. This is a caring and support place.

Geoff has given you some helpful advice .

It can be scary worrying what others will you think but I have found that being honest has helped others to tell me they sometimes feel the same way.

If you start telling people what is really worrying you, you can get help rather than keeping it all to yourself.

You have made a first step in telling us what is worrying you and this is a good start.

Take Care

Quirky

Cherry717 · ‎10-04-2018

Thank you so much Geoff. What should I be telling the GP ?

Cherry717 · ‎10-04-2018

Thank you so much Quirky. Should I continue expressing how I feel here in this forum or is it to be kept between me and the doctor?

Chloe_M · ‎10-04-2018

Hello Cherry717,

as Geoff and quirkywords have already said, welcome!

i understand and relate 101% to what you are talking about. I have intrusive thoughts and am anxious 99.9% of the time. I worry about the future, dwell in past events, and find the present dull and depressing.

You can continue posting here, we will be happy to help you, but also opening up to your doctor is a very good idea.

you should download ReachOut WorryTime- it's an app where you put in your worries, set a time and duration that you are allowed to think about them, and then try and not think about them. When it comes to worry time, you can go through your worries, think about them, and actually scrunch them up and flick them away if they no longer bother you. I like it very much and use it frequently.

All the best

Chloe

Cherry717 · ‎17-04-2018

Thank you so much Chloe. It feels good to know that someone else can relate to what I am feeling. I have installed the app you mentioned. And will see how it goes. Thanks again

Cherry717 · ‎17-04-2018

I think I know the reasons behind my anxiety. Some are to do with my current situation and some due to events that have happened in the past. And I just know that I cant change either - the past or my current situation. And I wasn't always this way. I do think I have been able to keep my emotions in check and just live in the moment till maybe 3 years ago. Many sudden changes happened all at once and I have been struggling to get used to some of the changes,

There are days when I feel just fine and then there are days when i feel like i have hit rock bottom. I really go into a self pity mode. And then i start recollecting things that have hurt me in the past silly things but i will recollect it all and just feel bad about it and feel sad for myself and i cant shut it off. And some days I feel so good and optimistic but it just takes a moment to lose that and then im all gloomy. Small things - like the news - maybe about an accident or something just stays on my mind and I find myself sad and anxious. So I dont watch the news or anything depressing.

Chloe_M · ‎22-04-2018

Hi Cherry, only just found your thread again, it got pushed to the bottom by a bunch of new ones...

Recognising and identifying are the first steps to fixing a problem. Good on you for finding what causes your anxiety.

i think for us anxious people the past and the future are always in our minds. I'm always thinking "what if this happens" or "what could I have come to prevent that". We need to stop that and focus on the here and now. This is why mindfulness is really good. It makes us think about the present, which I'm sure hardly ever happens. That's how it is for me anyway.

I wasn't always like I am now either; things change, people change. Change is a big deal. And it can be hard to get used to. It will take time. So try not to worry about it.

The same happens to me. On top the world, then I hit rock bottom. Then I'm just normal for a few days. Then it starts again. Although my anxiety is constant, my depression is always up and down and down and up. Only sometimes I am actually 'stable'.

self pity is okay. In small doses lol. We can't be emotionless all the time. I find I am too hard on myself. I get told that a lot, by my parents, friends, teachers, random people I don't know. Sometimes I think we just have to wallow in our misery thinking "oh poor me my life is so bad ho hum" to actually improve and get over it. Or maybe that's just my wacky way of thinking seeping through the cracks in my identity 😜 (Sorry I'm super weird sometimes).

Yeah the news, sad or distressing movies, mostly true stories (like every single movie we watch in history and English) make me sad, distressed, and depressed even sometimes. I avoid watching those types of things when I can. There's not point, depression and anxiety are like fires, watching things like that is like adding fuel to the flames...

Hope you have a peaceful night

chloe x