Going crazy

[Sparkles75]

Hi everyone, this is my first online forum and i'm not sure what to say... i suffer depression and this last few weeks has had me spiral down pretty bad to the point i dont want to wake up in the morning. I used to be like this years ago and its scared me abit. that awful dreaded feeling when i wake up.. oh no .. not again ...i'm in a 12 step program and am trying to work on positivity and things but woah i feel walloped into the ground again by indescribable sadness.

[SammyB]

Welcome Sparkles75! Sorry to hear that the last few weeks have been so hard for you. Can you point out anything over this time that has triggered this spiral downwards? Hope to hear how your day goes today. I can imagine how heavy that feeling of dread can be. Despite you feeling this way, the main thing I hear is that you’re trying, you’ve even made a post here and that counts as something. What step are you on in your 12 step program? Let us know how we can support you. Hang in there,

Sammy

[Sparkles75]

Hi Sammy, last few days have been ok... bit of a blur really as my concentration and general " off with the fairies ".'i have been to the docs for my meds update and she is changing my happy pills, so i am weaning off for 3 days then nothing for 3 before starting something new. I am very agitated at the idea of nothing and starting new and am projecting wanting to hibernate even mote than i normally do. I struggle around people and all sorts of things and the world is soooooooo noisy. I have been in my 12 step program for 5 years in January if i make it that long which i totally plan to. I have a sponsor and do the meetings and try for the suggested things but really struggle with daily life and concentration. I call myself a sieve head and my beautiful boyfriend supports and loves " all of my personalities " bless him 🙂

Phew.. that was a waffle wasn't it.

I am lost and afraid

[SammyB]

Good to hear from you Sparkles75, I see you’re pushing through even if the last couple days have been quite a blur.

Changing medications can be quite a challenge so I hope you can give yourself some time to adjust. It is understandable that you may want some personal time during this period of transition to get away from all the noise. Have you found anything in particular to help you cope with these times of change? It’s great that you have your sponsor and your boyfriend to turn to, but it might be helpful to get in the daily routine of practicing something like meditation and mindfulness to assist with settling your worries and focus your concentration better. Smiling Mind offers a free app with different programs that you might be interested in: https://www.smilingmind.com.au/smiling-mind-app . Hope your week's off to a good start.

Sammy