first time back here in a while

[MrsCam]

hi, I was a regular user of the forums a few years back but then I stopped for various reasons. have been feeling pretty bad lately so I thought Id give it another go...

Sometimes I think nothing is ever going to get better. I try but the bad feelings always come back. I feel betrayed and pissed off... I cant even go into specifics of my current situation as I don't know if the other parties involved my be on these forums and its looking like it could get quite messy in a legal sense... I call the lifeline number sometimes a at least I can say anything to them without fear of judgement or it being used against me in court... have had a few hospital admissions this year already and now I'm in day patient programs... why does it all have to be so hard 😞

[Guest8901]

Hello MrsCam, and a big "welcome back" to the Beyondblue forums.

It sounds as though speaking openly is going to be a bit of an issue for you here on a public forum. I hope you are able to speak in general terms however, and thus still enable you to access the friendly support and encouragement which is synonymous with the BB Forums. Ideally you could be more open, but there is still much to be gained by having people to talk to, even without being specific about existing issues.

I'm glad you are utilising other off line supports as you need them. I too find Lifeline to be very good.

I hope your current hospital outpatient program is helping you. I look forward to seeing you around the forums. Its good to have you back again after a few years break.

Amanda

[PamelaR]

Hello Mrs Cam and welcome back to our community

It is sad you are feeling pretty bad, though you've come to a good place where the people are caring, friendly, supportive and non judgmental.

I understand you don't want to say to much, though it maybe quite difficult for people to work out who you are unless you use your name, location and other personal details. Let's be as careful as we can so we don't give anything away hey?

I can see why you'd feel pissed of if you were betrayed. Trust is something everyone cherishes and when that trust is broken it's hard to mean the pieces. I've had various things like that happen in my life too. Who is there in your life you can talk to? Someone you can trust, e.g. close family member or friend? As I'm sure you realise from being on the forums before, talking helps a lot.

You say you've talked with Lifeline, what else is on your mind that you're able to say here and feel okay about? It will help us to support you in the best possible way if you can share a little more of your current story.

Keep reaching out Mrs Cam, if and when you want to. You're not alone.

Kind regards

PamelaR