I feel stupid doing this. But I need to talk to someone, my husband does listen, occasionally, but he has his own problems that I try to help him with. He has PTDS.
I lost my mother nearly 7 months ago, she lived with us in a granny flat, she did a lot around the house, helped me with my business and was the person I spoke with the most. Since losing her, I feel lonely and isolated even though my husband has been very supportive. He doesn't understand fully, what I am going through. He does criticise my mother about how she did things, and what she did. He never helped much back then. I have an adult son that still lives with us, he doesn't help around the house. Worse since his grandmother died. My closest friend, I have seen once since mum died, and that was in public. I hardly hear from her, she always says she will call me back, but it is weeks if not months down the track. I have spoken with a physiologist, and she says I am doing well but I don't feel it all the time. I need someone I can reach out to when I need to talk. Someone who can reassure and motivate me.
I know I will not harm myself. My family is too important, and I have precious grandchildren I want to see grow up.
What do I do? What can I do? I feel like a wimp some days, I just push myself to do things that have to be done. And put everyone else before me. I feel guilty to do anything for me.
