Hi and welcome VNS to the BB community forum;
You sound really down my sweet as there's a lot going on for you from what you've said. Losing a child is devastating and coming back from that's a process...grief, deep sadness, worry and then moving forward inch by inch, hopefully with support from family, friends, GP, med's and psychologist.
I really feel for you and where you're at. This site can provide friendship and support from people who've been there and genuinely care. We'd love to get to know you better. Cry or purge to us with abandon if you need to hun, and rest assured you won't be judged or told to "toughen up!". This old favourite unfortunately comes from well meaning people who haven't been affected by mental health issues.
There are links below to peruse for info you feel is relevant. Lifeline and BB crisis phone service's have well trained counsellors 24/7 if talking in real time is what you feel more comfortable with.
Please keep posting and ask questions if you want. We're only too happy to reply as best we can. Although we're not professionals, we have experiential knowledge and are eager to assist.
Warm and kind thoughts...
Sara
