Hi Nat,
Welcome to Beyond Blue and well done for reaching out.
I am sorry to hear that you are finding it hard to make some genuine connections at the moment. And given the current pandemic situation going on, well that doesn't really help matters much, does it?Certainly not the 'colours and rainbows' we like to imagine anyway.
I think one one of the important things to do and remember, is to be both patient and persistent. I do believe, that somehow somewhere is a group of people who are here already, just waiting for you to fit in with them. You sound as though you are someone who has both of those qualities. I say that because you are here, reaching out.
I wish I could offer some sort of solution ........ but at this time, all I can really suggest is what I have suggested above; to just be patient but persistent. At present, I suppose the safest way to connect with people is online anyway.
May I ask if you are on any social network platforms, such as Facebook, Twitter, Instagram and the like? If not, perhaps you could consider starting there? I know that on Facebook there are many groups to be found where people share common interests and values. I have found those to be a great help at times. Especially in the current climate of social isolation.
I don't know if any of that helps or not? Please remember that Beyond Blue is here for as much as you need it also, and you can post here as much as you like. Maybe you could have a read through other posts and find someone who is going through something similar, and help each other, yeah? It's always good to help someone else, because in doing that, we also help ourselves.
Anyway, I do hope I helped a little? Please feel free to respond if you want to .... or not. It's up to you.
Take care. I'll be thinking of you. xo
