Depression

[2310-lee]

Hi all

I guess everything does happen for a reason... I've stumbled across this and many atime wanted to chat and admit my feelings. 

I'm not sure on what to say or write but, here goes..

I've been suffering from PTSD & DEPRESSION  since I was 15yrs old. 

Unfortunately I never knew any of this or what the name of the horrible 'empty, sadness hurt' was until much  later in my 40s.

I was diagnosed with depression at about the age of 30. 

Unfortunately the medication wasn't working because I chose to numb my feelings through drugs instead. 

As I've gotten older and decreased my drug intake, alcoholism has been subsided for the drugs.

I'm also finding my current life atm is nit getting any better.  I'm at a cross road needing to encounter the next step but, it just keeps going backwards. 

I'm not sure on what to say or write but, here goes..

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO NEXT 

Regards

[Sophie_M]

Hi there,

Thank you so much for sharing your story with us. It takes real courage to open up, especially when you’re not sure what to say. What you’ve written carries so much strength, and we’re really grateful you’ve found your way to this space.

It sounds like you’ve been carrying the weight of PTSD and depression for a long time, often without the right support or even a name for what you were feeling. That kind of history can feel so heavy, especially when you've been trying to cope on your own for so long.

Even now, just saying “I don’t know what to do next” is a big step. It shows that part of you still wants change, still wants something better. And that’s a really powerful place to start.

You don’t have to figure this out alone. The Beyond Blue Support Service is here 24/7 on 1300 22 4636 or via webchat: https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support. We’re here to listen and help you think through what next steps might feel manageable right now.

We hope you’ll keep posting. You’re not alone, and you deserve support and care, just as much as anyone else.

Warmly,
Sophie M