Help to get better

[shallowdepths]

Hi there,

I am posting online because I don't know how to go about getting help for recurring suicidal thoughts.  I struggle to form relationships with counsellors to trust them enough to disclose that and I'm so ashamed of feeling this way a faceless forum seems the least embarrassing.  I don't want to commit suicide but I struggle... My life isn't hard - I have so little to complain about, but still I struggle...I even struggle to put it in to words.  I cannot tell anyone because I am surrounded by successful people.  Does anyone understand? 

Perhaps someone can recommend what they did?  Or who they saw?  Thanks.



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[dougall]

Hi welcome, there are many who can relate and you have chosen a marvellous place to talk about things.  I have struggled with suicidal thoughts for many years.  The best advice I can give you is to keep trying everything you can to get yourself out of the negative thoughts, it is not your soul that is telling you these things it is your head.  We listen far too much to ourselves and don't take time to sit quiet and tell our brain to be quiet whilst we enjoy the peace.  When i get the thoughts come into my head it is like an argument.  It used to not be an argument the negative thoughts were there now I argue with them because I know it is not how I was meant to feel.  Maybe with the counselors instead of talking write how you feel on paper and let them digest that as when you talk to someone you do not feel comfortable with the trust issue is there and sometimes we forget to say things that we really wanted to say.

beyondblue's clinically-trained moderators often work offline (invisible to you) on issues relating to suicide or self-harm. At the same time, general supportive comments from the community are encouraged. If you have concerns around suicide or self-harm, please phone our support service on 1300 22 4636.