Alternative Medicine and disability.

[Unholy_Idiot]

So this is a bit of a strange thing for me to openly talk/ask about, but I’ve acquired myself a prescription for medicinal weed as it helps with the anxiety I feel from my epilepsy. I’m also going through a lot of legal issues with my former partner/mother to my due to my mental state, so I’m in the process of getting an official diagnosis and my own place to live. But the biggest thing I’m finding myself struggling with is my finances. It sounds like a cop out but I truly believe I have some form of ptsd preventing me from being able to maintain a “typical” job so I feel like the next logical step is to try and get onto some sort of disability pension. But I can’t find any simple explanation as to whether I’m eligible or not. I also feel like I’m using these as an excuse to not work, but I genuinely do WANT to be a “normal” member of society but no matter how hard I try I just can’t do it. Like I said, any explanation I can come to always ends up feeling like it’s an excuse over an actual reason. I just want to live my life and be the best dad I can be without worrying about my finances but god damn is living expensive even without my medical weed. Any sort of advice or support is appreciated. No matter how small it may feel to you, it means the world to me.

[Unholy_Idiot]

I realise I mistyped. I meant to say ex partner/mother to my daughter

[TrueSeeker]

Hello

I can see that you're going through a lot at this moment. It can be all so confusing, overwhelming and exhausting.

Sometimes it can help to just look at the big picture. Like where would you like to be, what person would you like to be and what kind of father you want to be. It could help to focus on the most important thing to you and then work towards it and find ways that can help you to achieve that.

I hope that things will get better for you, please let us know how you're coping whenever you feel like it

[Unholy_Idiot]

Thank you for your input.

I feel like I know what I want from life and that's partly where the issue stems from. I want to be a musician. I feel it in every bone of my body that being a musician is what I'm meant to be. But it feels like that's not an important enough job to justify putting as much effort into that path as it would be to pursue a typical job. But being a musician comes with little to no expectations, I get to decide what I do, where I go and when I do so.

It allows the freedom I need to actually focus on my mental health and learning how to be the best dad I can be.

But again, no matter how much i explain to the world around me that music is meant for me, I am meant for music, no one seems to understand and accept it except for people at mental health facilities. Even the people in the psych ward agreed that it fits who I am. But I can't survive off of good music, hopes and dreams.

[TrueSeeker]

Hello

I think it's great that you have something that brings you joy. Even if it only becomes a hobby, I think it's definitely worth it to keep doing it and enjoying it. It will make it much easier to get through tough times and keep going.

Have you tried jobs that might allow for the freedom you're talking about. They might not be a perfect fit but might be close enough for the money to be worth it. It also could cover other things that you enjoy doing that will make it easier to work.

I hope that it helped a little and yes, it can take some time to find our spot in the world