39years of 2 psychopathic family members targeting my family

[Guest_39063739]

I really don’t know how to put all this , my grandmother had a partner who was the first one to abuse me at age 3 . When I was 19 I started work in a small business and actually met his nephew who at the time I wasn’t aware who he was exactly. I ended up dating this male for 6-7?years , he abused my mother and she never told me and when I left him and for the last 15 years has organised the stalking sexual abuse and sabotage to my entire life and family. After a epic workplace abuse last year and the one behind it caused me to leave the workplace and seriously damaged my mental health it’s that bad nobody can talk to me or see me as it’s dangerous to do so . Cyber bullying, smear campaigns, weaponisation of family and friends threats to children in my family. Breaking into me house you name it and it happened. The company only thought of there image and liability and nobody followed company policy. I couldn’t trust anyone at all so I had no support or close to enough understanding on how to handle this. Everyone expected me to know everything at first I didn’t know why , now I do and it’s that part I can’t even begin to process and to speak about it would land me in the mental ward . This false image that was created by others I had to live up to while having not remembered this over the top infamous reach out while being abused stalked and smeared. This is the part I am not sure I can handle anymore as I just remembered it today that it was actually real and actually referred to me . It also tells me how far around the world I have apparently been known and spoken about . I’ve been judged by people I have never even met and all knew of this happening yet nobody helped me or my family nobody cared enough to step in and help but actually this event made it worse to the point these psychopaths were always going to do exactly what they did . I was always going to do exactly what I did and always have done yet was expected to be super human basically. If I had of actually met expectations everyone would be right by my side . Because I didn’t not a single person supported me when I needed them to . To be targeted then victim blaming and then abandoning me it’s like a 3 times abusive wave I can’t get out of 

[Sophie_M]

HelloGuest_39063739

Welcome to the forums and thank you for your bravery and openness in sharing here. It’s a good place to have come to hear from others who understand some of the things you’re going through. We’re sure we’ll hear from some of our lovely community members here on your thread soon. They’re an amazing community who will have understanding, advice and kind words for you. It sounds like this is really hard for you and is having an impact on your mental health and wellbeing, so please know that there’s always someone here for you to talk it through with. You can always reach out to our lovely counsellors whenever you feel the need to talk. They’re really understanding and empathic, and sometimes just having someone who listens when you’re feeling distressed can make a big difference. You can reach us on 1300 22 4636, or via our webchat. https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/get-immediate-support. Our team are really good at talking to people through moments like this and working out options for more support.  I hope you can be kind to yourself through this challenging time. We are here for you, and you are not alone.

Kind Regards
Sophie M