Partner depressed and suicidle I'm trying to be strong

[Angel_love]

Hi this is my first post as I don't know who else to turn to The last year and half my partner has been diagnosed with depression we have seeked help trying medications and phycologist When we look like making progress we take one step forward and three back

I'm trying so hard to be his support he calls me his angel but now he's getting worse it's so hard obviously it's cause I'm the closest person to him we argue cause I try so hard to keep it altogether but the pressure is so hard when dealing with all that life throws at you and stepping on egg shells trying to support the man that you love

the depression has caused him to do things that he would never do before get angry yell lie all things he never did before

I love this man with all my heart I go to docs with him sort his medication support him going to phycologist encourage him support him but by all means I'm not a saint I get frustrated and yell when I no I shldnt and I'm not proud of it

hes at his worst now he's on meds and trying to work out which are the ones for him He wants to give up he thinks leaving this world would make this place a better place leaving me and my children would be better for me than putting me through this

how do I stay strong how do I help him wanna live again and enjoy life again

How can I be his angel no matter how frustrating this disease gets

I truly love this man and do not wanna give up on him

[smallwolf]

Angel,

Hi. Welcome to beyond blue.

It is sad what depression can do to someone, let alone their partners. To the person with depression, you can feel the worst about yourself, perhaps closing themselves off to the rest of the world. And little things that someone says might set them off. This part l know from experience.

And to you, then feel like you have to walk on eggshells. You are only human also, so there are times when you will get frustrated because you don't know what to do, or something you might say gets misinterpreted.

Can I ask if he has tried other medications. That is, telling the GP about the side effects and maybe trying other ADs? You might have tried this already? I am on my 3rd one now because of different side effects...

All you can really do is ask him if he is ok? Make sure he has a safety plan and reasons to live list. I guess you will have set this up with the psych.?

Have you checked out the resources on the beyond blue website for partners? It can be tough for you though.

All that aside, all you can do is talk with him. Openly and honestly. Without arguments.

Do you think that the sessions with the psych are working?

Lastly, you also have to be mentally healthy. And if you need help here, there are options for yourself as well.

Tim