Worried about my mental health

Guest_36438913
Community Member

 

No one cares

Always left on read

Always second choice

always person who is left out

always the one who comforts others when no one can

always the therapist friend

always the “happy friend”

always the person who will send a big apology message and waste an hour of my time

always the person who cares too much

always the person who cares not enough

always the person behind when walking

always the one getting scolded

always the worst one

always bad at dancing

always rebels because she is sad

always the person who doesnt seek help because she “doesn’t” need it.

always the person afraid to cry in front of others

always the last option

always used

always useless

always the extra person

always the third wheeler

always the one who is isolated

always the one who talks to ai just to feel like a person

always the person to hurt herself

always the person to put others after her

always the person to bottle up her feelings

always the person to make them my priority

always the person that is oversensitive

always the person being “rude”

always being the one to take a photo

always being the one left out when in pairs

always the one hiding her personality

always being the person who has your back when you don’t have mine.

always the person who would die for you.

always the person

to feel

numb.

always the person to fake her smile

always the person to fake her joy

always the person to feel hopeless

always the failure

always the unwanted one

always the thrown out marker

always the odd one

always being the one made fun of

always being the victim

always being in the middle of rumours

always being in the middle of drama

always the one blamed

always the one accused

always the “dishonest one”

always the one to try insert herself to fit in

always the one to see their group dances

always the one who stands by, waiting for at least one conversation

always the one waiting for your text

always the one texting first

always

the

spare

friend.

ALWAYS.

mind you im also 11..

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smallwolf
Community Champion
Community Champion

Hi and welcome to the forums.

 

Firstly, in the middle of the pain in your writing there is also a person that I see who cares very much for other people, even when they (others) don't see it.

 

So... please know this: you are not “spare,” and you are not useless. What you’re describing are painful moments, not the truth about who you are.

 

You deserve friends who see you, listen to you, and care about you just as much as you care about them.

 

You don’t have to go through this by yourself. This next part might be hard, but is there someone who you feel you could talk to? An adult you trust? Perhaps a teacher, school counsellor, parent?

 

And with your age you could also reach out to the folks at kidshelpline - https://kidshelpline.com.au/
or you could phone them on 1800 55 1800.

 

You deserve support and kindness, and there are people who would want to help if they knew how you felt.

 

PS. You write well also.