Im 60 male, going through my 2nd divorce.
23 years ago the family court awarded my $25000 settlement for my house ect. My solicitor, who told me all the way through the 18 month ordeal, that I should get about $120000, gave me a bill for $23000.
Current day, been married 20 years, and she wants to keep 2 bed townhouse that is currently an investment property. She has our 12 year old son 100% because i couch surfing and live in my van.
Our other invest property she wants 50% of that too.
Each property is modest in Beenleigh, townhouse about $650k and house $800k with $230k mortgage.
My father recently passed away, after 4 years in nursing home with dementia. Almost nothing to his name, but my sister and I didn't get mentioned in his will. Everything (which is nothing) to his defacto male partner.
I now have a hatred for my dead father.
I walked out of work 3 months ago, for 2 months, to sit on the edge of the ocean or Broadwater, just numb, depressed, working out how to sell everything and deposit the money to my kids accounts then end my suffering.
I know why they say Rest In Peace. That's all I want...peace.
I went back to work, just existing, not enjoying much, 4 weeks and I walked out again halfway through a day last week.
I feel that life just doesn't like me. I don't even like me.
I tried to apply to centrelink 3 weeks ago. I had a bit of savings, so the said I must wait 12 weeks before first payment. They want me broke and desperate too.
This world has become horrible to live in. I watch posts online about living costs and comparisons for phillipines, Thailand and Japan.
It all looks better than here. But then id be lonely and depressed, and hating myself, while looking at a different ocean or river.
I read somewhere that a full emotional breakdown takes 2 years to get over.
Who can access me? Services to help?
