Thoughts of ending it all, I won't but the thoughts are getting more regular

[Redsoxs]

Hi. Today I have decided to deal with depression once and for all. This weekend I felt quite suicidal and posted on LinkedIn what now feels like a goodbye note. I can't get interviews for jobs and I've pretty much given up. I use booze to take the pain away. I bumped into my neighbour who is a young GP and I was brave enough to ask for advice, well belp, hence I'm here writing my pain down. I have no family and not many friends. I believe I suffer from CPTSD but want to see a doctor tomorrow and hopefully get some counselling. However, being made redundant and not getting employment is taken its toll. It's scary thinking about suicide. OK, I just wanted to write something down, sorry if it's a rambling. Best regards.

[Guest9337]

G'day Redsoxs,

RU a baseball fan?

dng

[Sophie_M]

Hey Redsoxs,

Thanks for posting here this afternoon. 

We can hear how difficult life feels at the moment and know how overwhelming and debilitating feelings of sadness can be. Please know you're brave for confronting these issues and seeking help. 

We hope you know that there is always help available to you. You have mentioned that you have a diagnosis for depression. Can we ask if you are you currently receiving mental health support? If not, we would urge that you do seek professional support to help you work through these thoughts that you're experiencing. If you are not sure of how to access mental health support, please contact the Beyond Blue Support Service anytime on 1300 22 4636 or get in touch with us on Webchat 3pm-12am AEST here: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport

Please check in and let us know how you are whenever you feel up to it.
 

[Ggrand]

Hello Dear Redsox,

A very warm and caring welcome to our forums...

I am so sorry that you have been feeling this way....That was such a brave thing reaching out to your neighbour who is a GP....That was a very good first step to help you manage your depression and unhealthy thoughts...becoming a member here is another step towards your wellness..

Its great to hear that you will be seeing your Dr. tomorrow, and get a diagnosis for your mental health...and your GP can set you up with a mental health care plan....It’s really hard to be totally honest with them about our feelings and thoughts....,Please Redsox, although it’s hard to do so...it’s the only way your GO can properly help you the best he/she can...

I have depression/anxiety and PTSD..I can manage my depression and anxiety fairly well..but when it comes to my PTSD..that’s another story...certain things trigging me into a PTSD downer can arise at any time...My counsellor is helping me to manage that as well....PTSD is something that really does need professional help and guidance to manage...

I wish you good luck tomorrow..and if you feel up to it, please let us know how you go..

My kindest thoughts dear Redsox..

Grandy

[LJpd81]

Hi Redsoxs, just wanted to say I also think its a very brave thing you did by writing on here and seeing your doctor too. It's not easy.

You have many people here who support you.

I'm here if you want to chat.

Louise.