Struggling

[Senna]

Hi

new to this but not in a good place and hoping this may help

I’ve always really struggled to talk or ask for help so big step for me to be on this forum and not really sure what to expect or what I may get out of it but hey I’m trying 😏

Fair warning it will probably sound like a pity post but that’s not what I want just hoping putting things down might help me 🤷‍♂️

as usual moods up and down but far more down lately and just so tired of it all

hasn’t helped but new dramas/issues with my son today has left me exhausted and struggling to find reasons to keep going even just trying for one day at a time

just gotta wonder what it’s all about ?? Life I mean..... for me at the moment it’s just trying to get thru another day and try to smile.... trying to manage my chronic pain, no job no money teenage son who is literally doing my head in, PTSD triggers just about every where, very little sleep and spent most of this arvo/night in tears AGAIN and on and on it goes 😔 oh and Xmas around the corner which will prob end up with me in tears again and feeling worthless again if last couple of years are any guide mayb I could just sleep right thru and skip a day 😐😐

have an amazing Phychologist who sadly is on annual leave so no one to talk to doesn’t help. Yes I know call mental health ect ect but talking is definitely not my strongest strength even more so when struggling.
sorry for rambling on 😔

[Senna]

Hi thanks for checking in on me and I hope your doing better. Xmas is never an easy time 😔
Xmas as per normal not easy but actually got thru the day without ending up in tears and locked in my room so that was a win 👏👏

still struggling with the usual roller coaster ride of emotions with small things setting me off which is frustrating.

finally back on my meds with my GP who also has an interest in mental health ( which helps immensely) saying if ever I need to talk ect just call clinic and the girls in reception will try and fit me in to see him so that I have a place to go whilst my Phychologist is on holidays which makes me feel better as now I don’t need to contact her.

major surgery coming up in a few weeks total shoulder replacement but hopefully once thru rehab ect my pain will be a lot more manageable which is one less thing to deal with 🤞🤞

also helped I had my daughter home for a few days over Xmas as she is my best friend, my rock my world really. Not that she knows just how much I’m struggling but just having her company helps fit a bit.

I know they keep saying that i will get thru this eventually and life will become enjoyable again ( I’d settle for slightly interested/enjoying life again)

still Just taking it day by day but as they say one foot in front of the other 😬