Online issues

[N0vaaa]

Hello everyone, i know it's been a while since I've been on here

I've had a lot of problems online recently, and feeling really depressed lately. 

It started when my friend I've known since i was 15 (I'm 19 now) blocked me suddenly without a word. It really broke me because i was in love with him and when i finally confessed my feelings, he agreed to them and everything was fine

Or so i thought. He never messaged me after that day so when i went to check up i found out he had blocked me.

I panicked, was it because I'm trans? Was it the distance? 

I tried everything to get him back, messaging, re friending him but he wasn't accepting friend requests. 

I blamed myself for it and broke down in years because i enjoyed hanging out with him, we were close and i ruined everything by confessing.. 

After a few days though, i went to headspace to seek more help, i went to my first session but that didn't go so well, i felt very out of place so i left.

I also tried kids helpline, but i felt like I had waited for so long i didn't even want to talk about my problems anymore so i gave up..

So here I am, I'm back to beyond blue for help once again. i just need something to make me feel better, I'm lying to my friends, saying that I'm okay because i don't want to bother them. They have their own issues too

If someone could help me, i would really appreciate it.

- N

[Ggrand]

Hello Dear NOaaa,

Welcome back…I’m sorry this has happened to you..

Maybe your friend needs time to digest your confession to him…it could have taken him by surprise…also he might not feel the same towards you….sometimes we can mix up someone’s care for us as something quite different….

If you know his address, maybe write him a letter, or maybe a text message…

You’re other friends seem concerned about you…Do you have one that you trust enough to disclose what’s been happening to you?…or if you can reach out to your Dr.. they might be able to help you with a mental health care plan….

Im sorry if I’m of not much help..but I wanted you to know that we hear you and want to help support you….the best we can…

My kindest thoughts with my care Dear NOaaa..

Grandy..

[Bob_22]

Hi N0vaaa,

Welcome back to the forums and thank you for sharing your story. I'm so sorry to hear about your situation with your friend and some of the mental health issues surrounding.

You've done a great thing in reaching out not only here but to kids helpline and headspace also. Seeking help is often the most difficult step but you have shown great initiative and resilience. Unfortunately we do not always find the right support we need at the beginning. I'm sorry that you felt out of place at headspace and that the wait time for kids helpline was long. This is not ideal especially when there has been a huge push to improve youth mental health service capacity. 

May I ask why you felt out of place during your headspace visit? I know with clinicians it can sometimes be a mixed bag and that it often comes down to finding the right person. If this is the case, perhaps this is something you could feed back to your headspace centre. You could also potentially see your GP who can refer you to different psychologist via a mental health care plan? There are always options available.

Please update us and let us know you're going on. And please remember, that you're not alone. If you ever need to talk to someone over the phone or through webchat you can always reach a counsellor here at beyond blue by clicking the "immediate support" button in the top right corner of this page. 💙

Bob