I think this is the wrong place?

[Lurker_78]

I am really in need of some help, but I don’t think this is the place for it. I have tries several times to end my life, which I might add is not easy. It would seem these type of government help lines have been taken over and commercialised, press 1 for this 2 for that. Not what I need, I needed a voice not a machine. My family don’t talk to me, with I think is an attitude ok don’t make a mess.
Why is it that so many people don’t want others to finish? My live is worth nothing, when I go, nothing will change, the world will not come to an end, in fact nobody will even know about It except the undertaker. So why not help people? Why do they wish to keep us here?

[Sophie_M]

Hi Lurker 78, 
Welcome to the forums, we're glad you've decided to join us here even with some doubt about whether this could be helpful for you.

We're sorry to hear about your experience with some helplines. It sounds like you're really looking for someone to hear you and really listen to what is happening for you. If you would like some help finding the mental health support that you are seeking, we would recommend that you get in contact with the Beyond Blue Support Service. They are available 24/7 by phone on 1300 22 4636 or on Webchat 3pm-12am AEST on our website: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport  One of our friendly counsellors will be able to talk through these feelings with you and can offer support, advice and referrals.

We hope that you will find some comfort here on the forums. Please feel free to keep reaching out here on your thread whenever you feel up to it. 

[tranzcrybe]

Hi Lurker 78,

I'm so glad you chose to talk to us - you have already served a purpose that you never knew you would!

A quick glance at some other threads will show you that your feelings of 'what value do I provide?' are not exclusive, and you may find support from reading a few, as much as those who read yours can feel less alone as a result. And all of that happens in a simple little forum!

Trouble with 'just ending it' is that you will be depriving everyone in your future who will some day need your help, support, assistance, love, advice, charity... This is the knock-on effect of what you are suggesting.

"My live is worth nothing, when I go, nothing will change, the world will
not come to an end, in fact nobody will even know about It except the
undertaker"
- Sorry to correct you, but nothing could be further from the truth.

You are part of the cycle of life and your reason for being here is assured by your existence - maybe not right now, or next week, but none of us can know when we will be required to step up - even asking for help serves a purpose. We all need to love and be loved and you are a part of the process.

Please keep helping us here if you can.

Regards,

t.

[quirkywords]

Lurker

welcome to the forum. I am so sorry that you feel your life is worth nothing.

Thank you for writing your first post here as many reading here will have felt like you .

You have reached out here and may reading your post will be touched.

I hope you can try Bb support helping as Sophie has suggested .

There is support here and you are not alone.

Quirky