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I'm scared I'm not doing enough with my life
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Everyday I see people hanging out with their friends or partner, and doing such amazing things like having a beach picnic or doing a pottery workshop or even simple things like having lunch and going shopping. I don't have anyone to do these things with. I wish I did. I've spent so much time and effort trying to make friends but they all turned out to be fake (e.g. constantly cancelling plans the day of, ghosting my messages for weeks, or months, never asking to hangout, etc). I don't know how much longer I can keep trying. It's been too long, I deserve what everyone else has. Everyday Im alone at home rotting in my room. I don't even have the motivation to wash my face in the morning. Im jealous of what others have. I wish I could have at least someone to go shopping with. I don't like shopping alone. When I go shopping alone I don't speak a single word. I love talking. It hurts so much. I've cried the most I've cried since I was a kid, even more than when my grandparents died. I can't let my 20s be like this. What a waste of my prime. I know I'll still be young when I'm 30, 40, and heck even when I'm 50 I'll still be young. I just don't want to waste what I have now. Time. Maybe I'm too boring, too shy, not talkative enough. Maybe that's why I don't have anyone.
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hi and welcome,
at the moment I just want to reply to your comment about not talking when you go shopping... I have to go to the shops most days and will go to the butcher on many of those occasions. Whether it's about the music I hear, or advice, will have a brief chat with them - and these could be kids (they are a lot younger than myself) but 18+. You never know where a conversation can lead.
Also, can you tell what sort of things you like doing? And are there local groups you could join?
And I guess that you are not boring either - perhaps just looking for your tribe.
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ive joined a uni club but i have aspergers so i really struggle socially and i struggle to ask people for their socials or if they want to hangout sometimes. i tend to rely on others to engage which is an insecurity of mine but im getting better.