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self_harm_sweetheart
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Hey everyone.

I am in so much pain, and so so lonely. I've had depression and extreme paranoia for about 6 years now, and have been self harming for about 2 years. I've been thinking of suicide a lot recently, but I don't think I will take any action right now. It hurts so much. No one has been able to help me.

I'd just like to talk to someone. Anyone. Anyone who is willing to just have a chat with me, to relate with me. I don't have anyone else to go to; no one in my life wants to know. Please, please can someone talk to me. I'm so lonely. I'm desperate. Please, anyone?

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Sophie_M
Moderator
Moderator
Dear Guest_9436
 
Welcome to the Beyond Blue forums, we are so glad that you have made you way here and had the bravery to post.  We want you to know that this is a safe space to discuss your thoughts, feelings and experiences and receive honest responses and suggestions from fellow forum users.

We can hear how heavy this is feeling for you right now and it can be a lonely place to be when you feel like nobody is listening or perhaps even cares, but please know that you are not alone and we do care about you.  While you wait for one of our community members to respond to your post, we would love for you to give one of our fully trained counsellors a call for some counselling support, we are here 24/7 on 1300 22 4636 or via our WebChat.  In addition, our lovely friends at Lifeline (13 11 14) and the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467) are always there for you whenever things are feeling like too much to cope with.

Please keep safe and remember you aren’t alone on your journey to better mental health.  We will leave you in the hands of our lovely community members who will be here on your thread soon.  Thanks again for sharing. It’s a powerful and brave first step towards feeling better.


Regards 
 
Sophie M

On The Road
Community Member

Dear Guest_9436

I'm sorry that there's lots of suffering going on in your life😞 I'm sorry that you are hurting and feeling lonely. I'm hearing you, I think I can somehow understand the feelings of no one can turn to, which happened at my lowest point, and I have been feeling kind of hopeless since then.  

Don't know much about your situation but we are here with you and listening to you. Feel free to share whenever you feel comfortable. 

Plus, you may wanna have a chat with professional counselors here via webchat or ring 1300224636. 

therising
Valued Contributor
Valued Contributor

Hello sweet heart

 

I believe those with the sweetest hearts suffer the most at times, so deeply. So sensitive in so many incredibly beautiful ways and not so beautiful ways. To be able to sense one's own suffering while no one else works hard to relate to such suffering can be the loneliest feeling.

 

Personally, I'm a gal who's a major feeler and deeply sensitive to what I feel. While this is fantastic when all in life feels brilliant, inspiring and joyful, not so good when certain aspects of life feel deeply depressing. Would be great just to feel the light and not the dark, that's for sure.

 

As a feeler or 'sensitive' (one who's sensitive to what they feel), I've found it pays to be surrounded by wonderful people. People who are packed with wonder tend to be the ones who make a difference. With such people, you're not left to wonder alone. While you could say 'I wonder what's wrong in my life? I wonder why I'm struggling so much? I wonder what it is I need, to make a difference?' etc, wonderful people will seek the answers with you. People who lack a sense of wonder won't seek. They won't wonder, they'll just get on with their life and you'll feel it. You can feel them doing it.

 

I imagine there are a number of things you wonder about. Feel free to share.

 

❤️

On The Road
Community Member

Dear self_harm_sweetheart,

Just noticed you've changed your username, Sophie provided some ways that you can reach out to and therising shared her beautiful perspective. Not sure if you had reached out and read this. Would be great if you come back and share more with us. Please take care