Hey everyone. I've recently started a new job that I was really keen for but I've ended up hating it. It's not what I expected at all. It's super repetitive and boring, and I'm on my feet all day which I hate. I have so much pain in my back, hands and feet since starting there and I have to get up at 4am every week day. I'm not new to depression and suicidal thoughts, definitely had them before but it's all come back because of this job! It's a struggle to wake up in the morning, I feel so depressed I don't usually eat anything and then I'm starving later, and the suicidal thoughts are just there straight away, sometimes lasting the whole shift. I wouldn't actually do anything but I'm just not coping with how much my brain and body are struggling. I am looking for a new job and I hope I can get out of this one ASAP but in the meantime I felt the need to reach out. Can anyone relate? I would quit if I had money saved 😫
