About to give up

[SweetChariot]

I have been feeling quite depressed for some time and feel as though I am at my end of holding on to hope. Every day I cry multiple times and just don't want to be near anyone. I have never self harmed before but I feel myself over and over contemplating death and questioning if I would have the will power to die by myself. I just feel stupid and that I don't want to live this lie anymore. I don't think anything I am hoping for will come true and I don't know if there is anything I am still looking forward to. I wish I could be away from everyone. I don't want to keep waking up to this life anymore. I cant'.

[Sophie_M]

Hey SweetChariot,
Thanks for reaching out this afternoon,
We're so sorry to hear how hopeless and exhausted you feel. We can hear you're going through a really difficult time at the moment and hope you can find some comfort and support here on the forums.

If you feel up to it, we would urge you to contact the Beyond Blue Support Service on 1300 22 4636 or get in touch with us on Webchat 3pm-12am AEST here: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport. One of the friendly counsellors can offer you some support but also provide you with advice and referrals for seeing a counsellor in a more ongoing way.

In addition to this, please remember to reach out when you're feeling overwhelmed and needing to talk it through. In these moments you can get in touch with our friends at Lifeline (13 11 14) or the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467).

We hope that you keep checking in to let us know how you're going, whenever you feel up to it.

[Chris_Tas]

Suunds like me.

It's extremely exhausting just staying alive hey....and yes want to end it.

You definitely should take the advice of people here that know much more than me.

I wish you the best.

Chris

[Ghouligan]

It's hard existing, and waking up everyday wishing you didn't. I'd give you a hug if I can and tell you that you're really amazing for even existing this long. It's really damaging to not have anything keeping you tied to this world. And having anything to look forward to and everything feels like nothing. I do hope you get to feel happy again even if it's in tiny bits and you can find something to live for.

[Deniz]

I had very bad couple of days and my son took my keys and showed up like every hours and today I called the 131114 lifeline and after I started talking I slowly stopped crying and started getting tired. I think it might work for me talking. It might work for you guys to. Please just try it.