Vent and then let it go...

[Guest_1055]

Not sure about anyone else but sometimes I just need to vent, including venting any frustrations, fears, hopes, worries, longings and anything else. Most of the time I don't want any advice or any responses. Just need a way to get it all out from within me.

So thought this thread could be for those sort of things. No one replys to you with words or anything. It's a place to let it all go. Just dump whatever it is you want to say and leave it here.

So yeah no replys please.

[Harpbird]

You be right shelll, take a deep breath and put on some good music and think they gonski, xx

[Guest_1055]

Feel so alone, far away, fat and ugly. So tired of people playing games.. one person in particular seems like they are acting and not real. Or maybe its my perception. Just want realness and freedom to be whoever I was creating to be. Don't even know who that is. Confusion.

[Guest_1055]

Thankyou Harpbird and Sophie

[mmMekitty]

Long day, long day, can't do everything I want even when the day seems so long. Technology! & ne! I think we're not compatible.

I'm so tired I can't decide to eat, before Issleep. BUt when I wake again I will want to do some of the things I didn't get done earlier...& then be tired again. Or my legs hurt again, or my mind does.

Something, always something. I can only cope with one at time.

I know, silly thought asks, why can't life seem to understand?

Oh, I have to do shopping too..will the weather let me go up the road, safely, to get a few things?

[Doolhof]

My sister in law knows I am working Christmas Day...not my choice!

My sister in law has organised a family Christmas lunch...she knows I can not attend.

My husband tells me I should not be offended.

After a crazy Christmas Day at work I will be returning home to an empty house.

[Guest_1055]

All my life I have not really had a voice. Always had trouble verbally speaking up. No one to really listen to me. Or value anything I said.

I do have a voice and it cries out loud within me. I hurt for these people, it saddens me. Oh please wake up. Please see the truth. Just recently emotions were shut of in me... maybe I simply couldn't cope with feeling them anymore.

Tears have fallen, as once again my voice has been silenced. My inner cry for truth to reign. For all peoples eyes be open to it.

[mmMekitty]

I feel for you, you & you, & you, & you...I'm not going to name names, so many of you, with these ups & downs, so sad & hard, I know how it wears us all down & how it seems we have to continually build & rebuild, only to feel the erosion that keeps happening with these waves crashing in ... how do we keep going? I also wonder. Have done for decades, & I still don't know the answer to that, just that I have, though it seems due to nothing I have done.

One thing I like, probably the best thing about being here on BB, is acknowledging, beccause I see you all, & we are all in this place together, we all have support - more than most of us have ever known & if nothing else, let this be what keeps us going.

mmMekitty, here for as many as I can, even though it doesn't seem enough, because I can't answer every single post I'd like, but I still feel, think about & learn from all of you.

[Mk2692]

Hi Doolhof,

Sorry to hear that this is happening. It is really inconsiderate for her to organise a dinner that you cannot attend due to work arrangements. I know this maybe tough on you because of lockdowns as family gatherings were stopped and many other social events. I know attending family Christmas dinners would mean a lot to you. I think you should organise a family dinner and invite the people you would love to see. Enjoy the holidays with your family and let go of people that aren't worth your time.

[mmMekitty]

Hey Doolhof,

I want to ask your hubby 'Why the heck should Doolhof not be offended?'

It does seem a terribly inconsiderate & insensitive thing to do, given the way we've all been seperated because of lockdowns, I'd like to think that those who can, will go all out & try to be getting some face to face time - while we can.

*sigh* 😾 but how knows now! This Omicron strain of COVID-19 may just throw everything up in the air & out the window, again. I hope not, but while so little is known, I'm not confident we will be good to go ahead with Xmas plans

I intend to be here, Doolhof, & anyone else who will be alone during the silly season, unless my own circumstances don't permit.

I hate things feeling so uncertain!

[Doolhof]

Hi mmMeKitty and Mk2692,

Thanks for your comments. This isn't the first time I have been excluded.

I also know she has grown children who have their own partners, they too have families as does her husband.

It can be difficult trying to find a time to suit everyone. I understand that.

Yes, I can try to make the most of Christmas no matter what I do and whom I am with.

Here in S.A. thanks to our borders opening to Covid cases from interstate, who knows what tomorrow will bring let alone Christmas!