Thankyou everyone for your kind expressions of care to me! I don't know what I'd do without you. xxxxxxx
I have to admit to myself that I can't stand the alcohol fuelled insane talking and emotional rollercoaster my fiancee gets on when he drinks to excess.
It happened again yesterday and during a time of immeasurable grief for me, dealing with all the compounded grief of losing so many people I loved and so many beautiful pets, which I didn't bother expressing at all, I get ramblings of an insane nature.
Fortunately I'd watched Brene Brown in the morning, whom I LOVE, then when he began on ANOTHER "all people would think THIS (or whatever)" about a Movie topic ffs I used Brene's line.. "don't use your 'invisible army' with me to prove a point, name ONE person you know who is like that, just ONE".
He never can.
This movie was about Nurses!
omg don't start me... my own MOTHER was a nurse, one of my best friends is one too, I've known SO MANY nurses well. Those I knew closely were BRILLIANT nurses! Miraculous healers!
Some are not.
Because we are ALL different people.
demon ex was JUST like this, trying to say I was insane because "99% of people would think just like HIM"...
I ended up saying "Well who wants to be so common then, I'd rather be exceptional" lol.
He was a certified psychopath and I KNOW 99% of ppl are not lol.
I don't want a contentious relationship!
I "get" the GRAND decisions they make when they're drunk, "delusions of grandeur" I saw written by a psych about demon in Court documents.
Usually the alcoholics I've known don't even remember what they've said!
And then they deny it or brush it off.
What a waste of life listening to that utter rot.
Seriously? I would rather watch the grass grow in my garden.
