Vent and then let it go...

[Guest_1055]

Not sure about anyone else but sometimes I just need to vent, including venting any frustrations, fears, hopes, worries, longings and anything else. Most of the time I don't want any advice or any responses. Just need a way to get it all out from within me.

So thought this thread could be for those sort of things. No one replys to you with words or anything. It's a place to let it all go. Just dump whatever it is you want to say and leave it here.

So yeah no replys please.

[Guest_1055]

Woke up with a general ache in my mouth. Not hugely painful, more like a dull ache with with a dull throb in places. Also woke up with a headache. Thinking the headache is from the side effects of the contents of the numbing needles I had, the panadol and the "Happy gas". Yes I had that gas that made me feel weird, spaced out, yet I could vaguely hear the words that the dentist was a saying. That spaced out sensation bought back memories of childhood and the times I had it then. Felt like I had so many teeth out back then, due to over crowding.

Okay I chose to let all that fear go, the fear from childhood of every single visit to the dentist. In Jesus name, I pray. I don't want to carry the fear anymore.

Song now in my head "Let it go", "Let it go"

[Guest_4643]

Sorry to hear that Shell, I hope you feel better soon, and same with you Mark.

Sick of feeling awful mentally 24/7. My GP just says speak to my Psychiatrist. I can't see him until March 1. It's hard. I'm in pain too.

[Guest_1055]

Attempting to see the good things about this whole going to the dentist thing over the last 4 months.

She asked me how was my vitamin B levels? Apparently if you are low you may not be as calm and not handle stress well. So I started taking a vitamin B complex. Have been for about a month. I think I am more calm. So that is one good thing. Still felt scared but I did feel a little different.

The dentist issue led me to a lot of research. And I found out calcium needs Vitamin D to help carry it into the bones and teeth. So I had my vitamin D levels checked. And I was low. So that was another good thing to actually find out through this whole dentist issue. I can now work on getting much more sunshine and taking a supplement of vitamin D3. Also found out low levels of this may cause depression and anxiety in people. So that was interestin to know as well.

Another good thing.. I think I am used to the people at the dentist office now. Since I have been there so very much. They do not seem as scary as before. I am also familiar with the location that the office is in. I know where the toilets are, the lift, the car park area and a nice picnic table outside if I want to sit there for a while. I guess the familiarity of the place now helps with the fear of it all. Lessons it. So that is a good thing too.

Another good thing is that I have slowly learnt how to take care of my teeth better.

[Guest_1055]

Need to let this go...

I always wanted lots of children and I absolutely adore sweet little babies.

Then I saw this tiny sweet little baby in their mother's arms at the checkout in Woolworths, just now. The baby was smaller then the average size newborn.

A longing deep inside of me ached to hold the little one. And my arms felt like empty and hollow. Almost like a baby should be there but wasn't. I sort of wanted to snatch the baby for my very own. As I write this, well that sounds awful to me. I would never do such a thing. The longing still remains.

I really want to be happy for this new mumma.

[Guest_4643]

Hi Shell.

I'm really sorry to hear that, I hope you can have kids one day. I'm sorry about yout health issues such as the dentist also. I hope you feel better soon.

[Guest_1055]

Sad.. Tears.. Let them fall and let them go

[Guest_4643]

Are you ok Shell? We're here for you.

[Guest_1055]

I am safe..

But I want this to end. This emotional pain, this aloneness, this hostility, this disunity

I feel bitter now, I hate that so much in me.

[Ggrand]

Dear Shelly..

You say you are safe lovely lady...that’s so good to hear...but you didn’t say you are okay....I’m sorry Shelly you have so much soul pain and hurt...I so much wish I could reach through this screen and hold you in my arms in a warm friendly and caring hug....

Its okay to feel bitter...sometimes it happens to all of us...it’s okay to let those tears fall as well sweetheart..they are helping in healing your soul...

Remember the beautiful poem....”Footsteps”...I have been reading that so much lately..and do believe that God is caring me through the turmoil I’m feeling right now...Please dear lovely Shelly..read that beautiful and caring poem..then put your belief in it and try hard to have faith...that you are never alone...not in spirit nor in life..you have all of us to hold your hand and gently hold you up...

Love to you precious friend..

Grandy..

[Guest_4643]

I'm sorry Shell, we're here for you. Stay safe.