For the past 6 years I have been taking a medicaton that has helped with my depession / moods / anxiety,
Its been 10 days since I last took my anti depressants. By my choice.
The fact is only 1 person knows I have been using meth on a regular basis for the past 3 -4 years, Ive been addicted before in my early to late 20's . No one knew either until my behavious were really out of control and an intervention was made, and I went to therapy/ rehab. ..
Im 37, single with no children. And live on my own . I hold down a great job, own my home , and under all this " got my shit together because I work hard" I hold the biggest secret. As there will be a day when I dont want to use anymore, but I am sooo addicted,
Apart from my brother who knows,......My family are extremely anti drugs and would be in total shock if they knew,and they would never trust me / respect me ever again.
My friends wouldn't judge me but I am too embarrassed, and dont think they need to know anyway.
I need to get this off my chest, my doctor(s) don't even know because I am ashamed of how its taken a hold and how easy I can act/ look "normal"
I don't think Im looking for advise, but just a forum to get this off my chest and out of my head once and for all .
