Hi Heart13!
I am still in the healing process of my narcissistic relationship coming to an abrupt end. He left and blocked me off all social media which i am quite thankful for now, its been 4 months for me and I've had good days and bad days. I wanted closure and him to own up and admit what his done wrong, realise all the stories he made up about me not being the truth but sadly it doesnt happen, they dont have empathy and the ability to reflect upon their actions and words. I suggest no contact, something i wish i stood by from the start, i reached out to him to get answers and i wanted reassurance from him that i was right about us and that he ran cause his afraid and a horrible human i wanted him to know the damage he caused me. This only backfired of either getting ignored or him emotionally abusing me further, saying we were nothing, i meant nothing theres nothing special about me you name it. He denies everything he did to me, even if i listed it nothing changed his mindset. He is a stoner and hey that isnt a good combo at all. My head tells me that the life he would provide for me isnt the life i deserve and i am so much better than him and i did nothing wrong and he is the coward at fault, however my heart is full of love for the person he was from time to time. Dont doubt yourself, i always thought maybe im the bad person, maybe it was my fault but its not at all, being able to recognise faults in ourselves is mature thing narcissist aren't capable of.
You deserve better, it will be hard i won't sugar coat it. You will experience a range of emotions it will be painful, seek professional help. The emotional and mental abuse damages you but you are a lot stronger than you think ive realised that myself. Keep in contact x
