I need opinions please

Guest_98660003

I'm in a toxic and abusive house i live with my father and his wife and I've been given a chance to move in with a friend but her mum is thinking if it is a good idea or not (which is fine what she says goes) the wife is the toxic and abusive one my father tries to help but cant because she threatens to file a divorce and he loves her but I'm his daughter not hers so she likes to humiliate me and make me wear boy clothing and nothing else ( i identify as a girl pronouns she/her she knows this) she also makes me wear my hair in a ponytail plat very very tightly to the point I'm losing hair because of it she likes to talk down of my mum to me as well and i now have anxiety and depression and often have suicide thoughts.

I'm very scared all the time even at school.

I'm not aloud any type of device at all no tv no phone no radio to listen to music NOTHING

i only am aloud to go outside when I'm doing chores or going to school/coming back or seeing my mum for the weekend.

Idk what to do if my friends mum says yes

I'm scared and need a opinion please.

Sophie_M

Hey Maree042009,

Thank you so much for sharing this. We're so sorry to hear how tough things are right now and it makes sense that you would be feeling scared. We can hear you've been thinking about suicide. It's important to keep yourself safe by reaching out to us on our number, or letting a trusted adult know about this, such a teacher, a GP, or a school counsellor if you don't feel comfortable talking to your parents about this.

We'll check in with you privately too, but if you ever feel you may be unable to avoid acting on thoughts of self-harm or suicide, it's important to reach out. For crisis support, call Lifeline on 13 11 14.

If you’d ever like to reach out to us, we’re on 1300 22 4636, or you can use our webchat here: https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/

A few more options for talking it through are Kids Helpline on 1800 55 1800, the Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467, and Headspace on 1800 650 890. All these options are also available through webchat, if you'd prefer:
Kids Helpline: https://kidshelpline.com.au/
Suicide Call Back Service: https://www.suicidecallbackservice.org.au/phone-and-online-counselling/
Headspace (9am-1am AEST): https://headspace.org.au/eheadspace/

In an emergency, always call triple zero (000).

Thanks again for being so open here. We know how hard it can be to talk about feelings like this, we hope you can see it as a step towards feeling better. Is there anything that you're doing at the moment that is helping you through this?

We're glad you've found us here. You're welcome any time 💙

Sophie M

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Hi - first and foremost I would like to reiterate all that Sophie_M has stated - I agree with her 100% and am so sorry you're going through what you're going through. The only thing I have to add is to acknowledge that what you're experiencing is actual child abuse. Please feel free to reach out to any of us here or any of the links provided at a moment's notice. I do hope things improve for you.