Hey
I just wanted to use this forum to talk. I do chat to my friendsbut i dont want to continue burden them with my depression.
I have battled on and off with depression and anxiety all my life. I
suffered bad in my early teens, however became stronger and seemed to find positivity and happiness.
This was all well and good,however I have started sinking back into my
dark days again, esp at night, I cant sleep and i feel pretty low some times.
Its mainly because i feel lonley. Yes i have friends, but im 31, single, never married, no kids, live alone.
I try what i can to stay social, i try to get involved in the spare time i have. My main problem is i am so unlucky with love. I am such a softie.
I lost my father 7 years ago, and ever since his death I find it extremely hard to deal with losing people in my life, particularly men, I feel my life just has no substance,
I started medication about 5 weeks ago after yet another split with a guy. I dont know that its helping all that much. The last few days I have noticed my mind randomly fantasizing about
ending my life. I havent had these thoughts since I was 14 when I was getting bullied at sschool and surprise surprise a break up with a guy.
I consider my self to be a nice happy friendly girl, I dont know whats wrong with me. Why does no one see what im worth.
Im over it, its just hard
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