Stopping the nightmares

[Bailey83]

Hello Beyond Blue, in March 2017 I was involved in motor vehicle accident. Though only a small one as someone cut in front of me with NO under cater or anything. The light changed from green to amber the person in front slammed her breaks on that hard the front of her dipped while the rear of the car went up in turn I had to do the same thing, on a nice wet road. The point of impact was 39km. Her car came out with just a few scratches n dints while the front of my car just folded like a tin can. I later found out the this little gas part that makes the airbag go off was faulty and didn’t go off, it was an older car (2000 Mitsubishi Magna) I previously had a back operation a yr before I was all cleared to go back to work when this happened. That date has stuck into my head as I was taken to the hospital and found out I had broken my lower back (L5-s1) which was the weak spot prior to the accident. Today I’m still on TAC, now suffer from Depression, PTSD & Anxiety oh and sleep apnea due to all the nightmares I keep having due to my PTSD and use a CPAP machine. I’m currently seeing a psychologist which is helping me A LOT. I’m walking still which is also awesome, but like many other have had many good days & many bad days, with pain and not been able to work. All I did was play Xbox n watch Foxtel feeling sorry for myself and NOT THINKING OF PEOPLE AROUND ME. February 1st 2019 is also not a good date for me either as I hit rock bottom and did the unthinkable!! (I self harmed) I was in this very dark place and didn’t even know I did it at the time. To this day I still have bad thought but mostly on my down days. But thanks to my very loving family and talking about it has helped me so much. My point is there is ALWAYS help out there. Just because your a man doesn’t mean you have to be big n tuff and hind your emotions!! Talk to a family or friend that you trust. Make a phone call and just talk about how your feeling or want to just get something off our chest. ITS THE BEST WAY!!! I’ve learnt it takes more of a man to talk about your problems then to bottle them up like I do, but I’ll still currently learning not to bottle things up, TALK OPEN TOUR MOUTH. It’s the best way. Thank you for listening to my story.

[Aaronsis]

Thank you so much Bailey 83

Your story is one of hope, of recovery and strength and it is so wonderful that even in your dark days you have people around you that love and support you.

What is even more wonderful is that you did find your voice and to this day choose to speak and choose to use it.

Your message is so wonderful and I cannot agree ans echo you enough, it is so important to speak...even if you don't know what to say.....even saying that is enough, and if the first person doesn't support you..keep going til you find some help.

Every best wish to you and thank you so much for your beautiful words.

Hugs

AS