Sexual Anxiety/Trauma

[31_Male]

Hey

I am a 31 year old male,

and I have recently been having flashbacks of an mean-spirited individual I used to know
growing up in a Government gousing area.

He was violent, narcisitic , controlling and he used to elevate himself by tearing others down.
He is now involved with criminal activity.

I recently logged onto a Gay Male sexual chat-site and engaged in a explicit conversation with a guy over anonymous Microphone, that claimed to be from Canada.

But for some reason my mind was telling me that this stranger on the other line could somehow be him?

He claimed he was 44 years old form Canada, but he was originaly from the UK but migrated 30 years ago.

He hung up the covnersation when I asked a question.

I had a strong feeling of Anxiety and guilt afterwards.

Do you think the individual mentioned could be him?

[GimZim]

Hello there

It does seem unlikely that it would be him, obviously I don't know how popular the service would be but I imagine even if he did use it it'd be near impossible for you to end up in the same chat. Still, I was using Omegle once and wound up chatting to someone from the same small town I'm from originally so nothing is impossible.

What do you think it would mean to you if it was? And what would it mean to you if it wasn't? I don't think you want to feel like every person you speak with anonymously could be him, that would be very distressing and like you said, you felt guilty and anxious after the chat. Speaking anonymously is something that can be quite freeing but it won't be if you're paranoid about coming into contact with him.

[31_Male]

Thanks GimZim,

I did an IP search on the individual on the chat-site and It came up as being from Tornoto,Canada

Its not like Omegle, its a traditional text-based chatroom and the user comes on frequently, So I'm thinking should I try and voice-chat with him again, just to double-check?

The biggest shame is my sexual fantasies (100% ficticious and Adult ofcourse), which I often role-played on the voice chat.

I was diagnosed with OCD from my youth, and Im wondering if double checking is a compulsion?