I don't think I'm strong enough...

[Solosombra]

Rape, abuse, forced into religion early, high expectations from a iron fisted farther, famous cousins I'm constantly being measured against, a life time of regrets at 26, losing a baby, cheated on twice, craving love/companionship but to scared to trust anyone again ever, work, siblings that look up too me but I just want to hide from the world in my own corner. I need strength but I'm too damn weak. Why? Why am I not strong enough to deal with this anymore? Usually I can find the strength I need by helping others but that's starting to not work and its scaring me so much. I've never hit a low like this before and it feels like quicksand everything I do backfires in my face.

[Solosombra]

Yeah thats the thing, im not too sure how its gonna be when i dont have a distraction.

Its ok i know about painful long stories retelling them once is enough for me too I get that. But the minute im up for it ill catch up with your thread. Its not fair that you help shoulder my problems and i know nothing about yours.

[Clues_Of_Blue]

You sound like me, Kiamau. That ever-present sense of reciprocal action. For the record though, I listen because I like and respect you, and in the hope I can help. That's surprisingly rewarding in itself. You're more than welcome to visit my thread, of course, but it's certainly not required. 🙂