Hello world,
I'm someone who - naturally happy, has had my life destroyed. I believed in a friend, who turned out to be a bad man. I married him on a whim, believing he would be wonderful. He turned out to have more skeletons in the closet. Domestic abuse, alcoholism, drugs and mental disorder from his side came to light. On top of that, an eccentric narcissist. I fell pregnant, didn't abort. I considered leaving him, but he wanted us to be a happy family. Until I discovered he cheated on me, and was secretive. No only that, but only a week after our girl was born (a little girl he first wanted me to abort) he became possessive. I had the baby early and for several months in hospital my little girl had to fight for her life, as I had to face my demonic ex husband. He caused my hospital time with my girl to be trauma, and not only that but now I have lost my freedom. I'm living with my Auntie here in Australia, but my parents and family are all in France. I so desperately want to go to France with my baby girl, and I cannot even leave this country - he didn't give me permission. My career over, my dreams lost, my freedom gone, my pregnancy unpleasant, my marriage a disaster, my bank account depleted. My parents will be coming to Australia soon to help, but they can only stay for so long. My who life is over, it's destroyed by one man, one mistake. I feel like I have no hope, like I have ruined my life. My husband claimed he'd move to France with me, my parents purchased an apartment close to theirs for us, decorated... and I have never even had the pleasure to step foot into a gift, an expensive gift. I'm so destroyed. I'm so lost. I have physically aged at least 2 years when I appear on photographs, my birthing was a c-section so my physical strength and love of the gym is on a long hold and I just feel like I have died. I'm scared of my ex-husband taking the fragile baby to his hands as he is not a normal good man, and my baby girl, I'm honestly fearful of her safety around my ex-husband not to mention his parents. My ex's sister is a psychologist, my ex's father is a surgeon, my ex's mother is a pediatrician and they are all knocking on my door and trying to get to the baby. I am sick too, have hardly slept, they tell me we are to share the baby and they have plans for her future. I feel like I don't count. My Auntie is stating she will now refuse to let them into our home and I'm scared. Do I have a future? Will it ever get better? I feel destroyed!!!
