This bipolar life

[Kazzl]

Are your moods are like an elevator with no control buttons? Mine are.

Ground floor ... I feel normal, content, just quietly getting on with ordinary, everyday life, loving my family and friends. This is as it should be. And maybe there's nothing wrong with me after all. Live.

Going up, top floor. Oh look! There's a shiny thing! I want to sing! Let's go buy stuff! Let's have a big party and invite the world! What could possibly go wrong! Woooooo hoooooooo! Play.

Going up (a different day) top floor. What do you mean you don't agree with me! I'm right! Why don't you think like me? Keep up! How can you be so illogical? I'll f-ing shred you if you don't do what I want! Rage.

Going down, lower ground floor. Flat, listless, can't be bothered. Can still function but it's a drag. Cope

Going down, basement. I'm never getting out of bed again. I'm useless, worthless. Total idiot, how could I ever imagine I could do anything, nothing ever goes right because I'm wrong. I'm a burden to everyone. Hide.

Welcome to my bipolar world. It's always been my world, but it's only recently I've seen it for what it is. About 15 years ago I was diagnosed with clinical depression during one of my 'basement' times. I had a lot of lower ground floor times too, on and off, and I kept out of the basement (so I thought) with alcohol. Until that took me into the blackest ever basement with only one obvious way out. Having survived doing something very dangerous I realised I had to stop drinking or I really would die.

I never took much notice of the playful times or the anger, that was just me, I was fun sometimes, and sometimes I was a devastating bitch. Ha! Deal with it people!

Well, yes, but in time the elevator started going up and down too quickly and, as I became more aware and more knowledgeable about mental health I realised this wasn't good. Doctor. Diagnosis. Bipolar 2. Lithium.

So, I've started this thread in the hope that other bipolar folks will join me, to share experiences and strategies. In my 'beginners' understanding, we are different from other fellow travellers of the back dog. While we experience depression as many others on this site do, the hypomanic or manic ups and, for some the rapid cycling that can happen, are experiences unto themselves.

I want to learn more, and I want to share with others. I hope my fellow elevators will join me here.
BTW, it's a ground floor day in my head today! Yay!

Love

Kaz

[quirkywords]

Hello one and all

Velvet, I agree some people are not interested so I don't bother either.

Can you have too much fun? I am not sure? I will write softly so not to hurt your ears.

Documentary day- which is your favourite?

Quirky

[Lady_Stardust]

Thank you for the congratulations and the encouragement! And such kind supportive words, Loula, thank you very much, they make me feel better about my less than stellar reaction to this new little gift. ❤️

Airies, I’m sure there must be a healthier way to get to the weight you’d want to be without starving yourself? Maybe look into it so you can not only be the weight you want to be, but healthier overall. :3

Quirky, maybe also look into ways to maintain weight once you’ve healthily reached your ideal weight? Lots of good solutions for everything online, there’s a whole, sprawling digital world!

We’ll all be very quiet for your sake, velvet, imagine all my exclamations were whisper shouted, hahah.

I hope we’re doing well today and you’re all wonderful, keep on keeping on. >w<

[quirkywords]

Hello everyone,

Lady stardust, it is hard with my medication to keep weight off.

Is this your first nephew/niece?

Aunty stardust.

Quirky

[velvetfaerie]

HEHE typing quietly. I’m more exhausted I think. Full on week.

I love all sorts of documentaries..... animals, crime, engineering, aviation, biographies.......

AHhahah Lady.. lol... **whispers**

Cleaning the house, water and good food fixed me up. 😀😀😀

[Lady_Stardust]

quirky, have you spoken to your doctor about ways to help your weight when on your medication? It really sucks that our meds can have such an effect on the rest of our body when we take them to try to help our minds. 😞

It is! My very first nephew, so it’s all very exciting. We’re a pretty small family, my immediate family, I only have one sister, so yeah, very exciting. >w<

velvet, happy to hear you’re feeling better~ 😄

[quirkywords]

Hello everyone

Aunty Lady star dust, congratulations. I have kept it off for about 5 years but it is a battle at times as I love food.

Velvet I love documentaries then I forget the information I learnt. there was a good one on Einstein and another on inventors.

[velvetfaerie]

I am SO BORED WITH LIFE.

I am looking into mystery get away things. This mundane stuff has got knobs on it.

[Loula]

Hi Velvetfaerie, they are very smart. I think there was a documentary about them and how they would copy people and put rubbish in the bin and go down slides. Unfortunately I don't like them but my school was covered by them and I had to do a maths/science assignment on them on how many in an area. And when you where having a test they would be going off and you weren't allowed to chase them away in case a class was counting them lol!!!!!

I just don't get why people are into them self. It's all about them. And it hurts when you give them so much time and love and when you need it you get zero!

Documentrays are so great to watch. I love animal ones.

Haha nothing beats a hang over. Group question do all of you drink or not? If so how dose it effect you? Like I know our conditions and medication says not to but you know I'm human.

Weight is really hard one. I had one tablet that put 2 dress sizes on me!!!! I find clean eating is good but then again I love food. So I have like one extremely naughty day a week lol!

Velvet may I ask why you are bored in life? You seem a bit down. If you want to chat I got the day off and will be on hear. I have those days when I'm like it is boring and what am I meant to do. So you at least have someone to talk to that will actually understand you.

[quirkywords]

Hello everyone,

Loula, I tend to drink a bit and then go without it for weeks. I don't think it affects my moods.

I did that water only(the only liquid but still had food) challenge for a month and lost no weight and my partner said I was grumpy!!

An extremely naughty day once a week is that just food wise or other things??!!

Quirky

[Loula]

I'm the same I'll have a few drinks and then not for a while. Dosent seem to effect me as well and I don't get drunk quicker.

Water diet gosh I would of turned into the scariest person. When I go raw people hide lol!!!!

Naughty day means all the food I love shopping, hanging with my friend or staying in bed with a food fort watching Netflix lol! What ever my head can take on the social part I do but food is a must lol!