I spoke to my mum today. She's talking about his will and affairs. I can't handle it. I miss him. I haven't seen him in years due to covid and he's about to die. Like really soon. I don't want my step-dad to go, I'm selfish, it's not even about me, he's in agony so why can't I say goodbye.
Thank you for sharing how you feel. It sounds like you are going through an extremely difficult time right now and it is very hard for you to cope. Cancer does suck. You have been extremely strong for getting through it all and you should be very proud of yourself.
Thank you for sharing. It's understandable that you're having a hard time saying goodbye to someone you love. I don't think it's selfish, rather it shows how much you care.
Have you talked to your mum about how you're feeling? It could be helpful to share how you feel and perhaps support each other through this difficult time. As Sophia16 mentioned above, take your time. Be patient with yourself as you deal with everything.
Hello Centaured, it's awful when you want to see someone who has an illness but you can't, but the restrictions here in Australia have now been relaxed, so there might be a chance you are able to see him, especially under these circumstances.
If he also wants to talk with you, then I would be doing my best for this to happen.
