a depressing start to september

[moody-_ahhhhh]

father's day makes my dad's passing more depressing, even though i dont really so much on it on social media so far today i just feel a sense of emptiness. i miss being young. i miss not having health issues. i miss being happy

[Psychdiaries2]

Hi there,

Welcome back to the forums and my heart goes out to you today. It's hard with holidays knowing that a loved one isn't here today and wishing they were. I guess the thing you can do is be with others people you love and keep his memory alive especially on this occasion. 

I relate to your longing for not struggling and wishing to go back. Sometimes these feelings come up when we're feeling down and negative thoughts can easily spiral. I remind myself that everybody struggles and it is ok to struggle and maybe you can too. It's ok to feel how you feel and it's not your fault. Maybe you can practice some self-care and do something you enjoy today to make you feel a little lighter. 

Sending love to you and take care,

PsychDiaries

[Pete66]

I understand how you feel.
A few years ago my leg was amputated a week before Xmas. At Xmas time the hospitals try to send as many people home as they can, not me, I was there for a month. They do not even put on a special meal.
So, for the last few years, in the lead up to Xmas, I get very quiet