Hi Tia and welcome to our caring community;
Your predicament is an all too common problem for ambitious young people who want to conquer the world. I think you've got a wonderful attitude to learning and growing, just not as much experience to bring it together. But you know what? That's forgivable and very normal.
Learning to find balance within a world of priorities all fighting for the top place is overwhelming for the best of us, let alone a teen who's starting out in life. That anxiety you're feeling's due to the pressure you're placing on yourself. Our bodies and minds give signals telling us we're overdoing it. If we don't listen, it gets worse.
It's time to take a weekend off to remember how 'fun' feels. Make appt's with yourself; put them on the calendar and stick with it. Make time to study, time to connect with others and time for family and fun. Make a pact with yourself to find balance because this is a great time to learn how. It'll set you up with great habits for the rest of your life.
I'm an oldie so you might think well, what does she know about what it's like now? Time is time; wanting to be successful at everything crosses all boundaries and wanting perfection and instant gratification have been around forever.
If you're experiencing anxiety now due to your expectations, imagine what it'll be like when you have a career, kids and life lessons to learn. Take it from me, be gentle and kind towards yourself. You are your best friend who knows better than anyone who you are and what you want. What you're willing to do to achieve those things though has to be realistic.
Take a few deep breaths each time you feel yourself getting anxious about deadlines or decisions. Tell yourself it's ok to feel overwhelmed considering. You're human and deserve to feel comfortable with your life too so take a load off, put your feet up for 1/2 hr and laugh at some nonsense on the telly.
This actually works chemically in your brain not just for time out, it also provides feel-good chemicals to boost energy and confidence. Your emotions can be your worst enemy, so balanced day to day activities will help you cope.
Please write more and let out your frustrations Tia. Purging really does help...
It's lovely to meet you; I hope to hear from you soon.
Kind thoughts;
Sez
