Useless

[red_roses12]

I'm new to this forum as I have no where else to talk about my constant head battles. I am a mother of 3 beautiful kids, who I feel deserve better. Two of my kids are to a previous tomultious abusive relationship and my other child is to my current partner. I have family with depression and anxiety and have inherited it along with possible ptsd.
I am always so stressed about the little things the big things and everything in between. I have a huge amount of debt and struggle with everyday things.
For the last 6 months at least I have been worse than normal. I am so constantly upset with everything I do and I feel like I'm always stuffing up and never doing anything right. I struggle to get my toddler to bed, to keep the house clean to remember things to even make dinner. I feel like a failure as a mum, as a person as a partner.

I don't know what to do, it a constant circle and I can't snap myself out of it. I feel useless and not needed.

[Gambit87]

Hey red_roses12,

Welcome to the forums. It takes alot of strength and courage to reach out! good on ya.

It sounds as if youre burnt out! trying to pour from an empty glass. You cant help anyone if youre running on empty! you need to remember whilst your kids, partner, life things are important - YOU are important too!

Do you take much time out for yourself? maybe a walk around the corner, a coffee at the coffee shop, sitting at a park for little while? I find that taking that short timeouts from everything can help calm the mind and reset your focus.

For the over 10 years I was struggling with debt, stuck in a dead end job, thinking I was useless and a failure because I wasn't going anywhere. I felt like I was stuck in a rut without a way out. Thankfully with the help of a psychologist - Ive been able to see things from a different perspective and I feel good about my situation. I highly recommend seeing a GP to chat about options and maybe even a psychologist to help work though whats happening. Do you have any friends/family you can chat to?

while I dont have kids, I do know what it feels like to be stuck in the constant circle with constant feelings of uselessness and failure... It sucks.

Youre not alone here! We're with you!