hi Solo, I have been following some of your posts with interest, so if I say something which isn't correct then please bring back into line.
Many times I have seen people laugh at funerals, it's certainly not that they are happy but it's an impluse a reaction to seeing someone they love pass away, they don't mean it and people give them strange looks, but they can't help it, and when they are by themselves that's when the flood gates open, and the reality sets in.
Maybe it's their reaction to stop themselves from crying, a defense mechanism, no different than laughing about something we are afraid of, and then asked by someone 'why are you laughing this is serious'.
Being alone will cause you to think negative thoughts, and then they multiply in heaps and bounds, and by saying them to yourself so that you can get them off your chest is not the way to handle them all.
You need a person qualified or not, but preferrable qualfied to talk to, because you can never get rid of this feeling by yourself, it only goes around and around in circles and only going downwards. Geoff.
