I arrived to Australia last year and I still am unable to fit in here. Being an introverted person, I did not join most university activities as most of it is partying and drinking, which I do not like. Due to this I have spent most of my time in my room for the past 2 years and it has made me depressed and very anxious. I do not have any close friends here or back at home, so I have nobody to talk to. Since childhood I have always had really low self esteem due to my looks. (My friends and family used to make fun of me due to being overweight). But I am not that fat either (90kg) but because of the past bullying, I have really bad social anxiety which prevents me from meeting new people. Im always scared of being made fun of when Im in public.
I started doing better habits few months ago, quit smoking, started working out and eating healthy. But i feel like my mood is getting worse day by day and Im struggling to concentrate on my studies now. Ive lost interest in my hobbies too.
Everyday I think of making an appointment with a GP to get help, but I end up not doing it due to my negative self talk. I feel like a fraud and that my symptoms are not that serious and feel like doctors are gonna judge me or sth. I dont know what will motivate me to get help, it just feels like a huge effort to call the clinic and ask for an appointment.
