Hi
I had shoulder surgery on March 10. Prior to that all my family and friends kept saying "let us know if there is anything you need" etc. Surgery came and went and other than my sister not one person has done a damn thing for me. No one has come over to visit or help out with the house and garden. The surgery was complex and I have been in constant pain since. I landed in Emergency two days after with severe chest pain and suspected embolism; luckily that wasn't the case. I can barely sleep for one hour at at time. All these people have texted me asking if I am ok etc but NOT ONCE made any effort to actually DO anything for me.
I am in an extremely low state. Constant pain, sleep deprivation and now other parts of my body are paining me because I am all bent out of shape when I do actually get some sleep. I am also very worried and anxious about the pandemic. I really feel like there is no light at the end of the tunnel...not just for me but for everyone.
Back to the current situation; I am the one who goes over and above to help others. I have done so much for my family and friends over the years. It actually kills me to think that I am so insignificant to them. Any time there is trouble I get called. Anytime someone needs something I get called. And I do everything for these people!
Sorry to be such a wet blanket but I am just so upset and disappointed. My brother lives in Melbourne; he didn't even bother to text me about the surgery. I spoke to him briefly online last night (he and my teenage son play online games) and he was drunk and being an idiot and didn't even care about me. I cut the conversation short as I was so angry.
Even though my sister has been helping out minimally she makes little comments about 'running around after people' etc which make me feel like saying 'if you resent doing this then don't". After the Emergency Dpt she said to me 'you have to stop panicking about everything', I was in absolute agony and had no sleep for three nights....? I just don't understand!
She and a friend we have in common have been catching up for dinner etc; they have not once invited me. I guess I must just be a pain in their backside or something. I don't know how to cope as I am now getting really angry at all of them and that will not end well!
Thanks for reading my rant. Just typing this and putting it out there is slightly cathartic.
