Hey everyone
I’m a single mum of 2 age 4 and 6, the little one is part time school and the bigger one full time 9-230pm there both amazing and light up my life no problems there.
im only 29 but I feel like iv lived a million lives already and I am exshasted…
I grew up with an absent dad and an extremely depressed mum who slept all the time and when she was awake we walked on eggshells, I looked after my little sister since I was 7 as mum couldn’t always. Mum and I have made peace later in life that’s all okay and she couldn’t help she was mentally struggling. It turned me into a people pleaser though because I didn’t want anyone to get mad and yell, I met my ex husband at 16 and quickly moved out with him and married at 19 as an escape, he was a narcissist though, mentally and physically abused and used me up, this man wouldn’t even let me wear clothes some days, it was again walking on eggshells to keep him happy, severe financial abuse, I fell pregnant quickly twice the list goes on, eventually I managed to pack the car and leave with the kids while he was at work, stayed with my grandmother for abit but i became her caregiver and had to eventually go back to mum and dads. At 18 I broke both my legs in a car crash which ex husband was driving I got a payout which he spent and its left me unable to work as much but iv become so tired and had a lot of other bad luck plus I’m a full time mum and I now live with my childhood bully my mum which is causing my mental health to go down I can no longer work at all and where would I put the kids I have no babysitting avalibe and little one is only at school 2 days plus house work ect, so I get abit of gov assistance but it’s not enough, I could do some more work from home if I had my own place but I can’t get a rental with no job and I’m nowhere near a mortgage I don’t know what to do or where to turn to get out of ahead I need to get out to improve my mental health for the kids and as time goes on it’s deteriorating fast! Gov housing waits are years.. should I just give up because I’m so tired 😞
