I have had bipolar symptoms most of my life, diagnosed in 2000. My parents were caught up with violence, alcohol abuse, multiple infidelities, financial issues. My mother had severe social anxiety and would not leave the house with out my company.
I find it very hard to "fall in love" although I have had many , many relationships with men.
Recently I have been in a relationship with a guy - a Dominant/submissive relationship with me as the Dom.
We have had a lot of fun, but things have started falling apart. My mood has dropped a lot and it has become very hard to remain dominant when all I want to do is sleep.
The fight we had was insignificant ... He said something insensitive about my sexuality and it suddenly spiralled. Now we are only texting each other tersely when normally we would meet twice a week.
What I am wondering about is whether depression brought on by relationship trouble is the same as clinical depression? Will it be long-lasting? Should I try to "make things better"or let the relationship go so I can concentrate on improving my own mental health? It's hard to know whether having his company is important. He's very understanding of my psych. needs as his mother has been unwell, but in other ways he is an ocker type who is not used to offering emotional support.
Any thoughts about this? Thank you.
