Recently sober alcoholic struggling with self forgiveness

[Rubify]

Thank you for reading.

I am 7 days sober and struggling mostly with guilt and self forgiveness. I have been an alcoholic for 8 years and during this time I did have sober periods but these were short lived.

I am struggling to cope with the shame and guilt I feel toward myself and my alcoholism.  I have had poor judgement, made bad decisions and put myself in situations that made me extremely vulnerable because I was "blind drunk".  How can I forgive myself?  I fear that if I cannot find a way to forgive myself, I will drink to escape what I have done and who I have become.

I would really appreciate hearing from others who have struggled with self forgiveness.  I would be especially grateful if you could share with me exactly how you were able to forgive yourself and move forward with your life.

Thank you again for reading.

[Rubify]

Geoff I do not need medication.

Thanks again for your support.

[AlisonM]

Hey there Rubify!

15 days! Well done! Keep going! You'll be moving past the headachey stage now and waking up feeling pretty good most days. It's such a great feeling, isn't it?

Good on you for attending that support group. Sounds like it's really helping.

look, I'm with Geoff on the visit to the doc, but I do understand that meds aren't the way you want to approach this right now and fair enough. I'll just tell you my experience and that is that it's not all about getting meds. My doc takes a bit of time just to talk to me and also order tests to check on any damage I may have done over the years (my poor liver). Luckily, no permanent damage. 

Anyway, enough about me, this is really just meant to be a big shout out to say well doe, and keep it up!

Ali

[bringeroflight]

Hi Rubify!

That's GREAT news!

Hang in there and after a little while the cravings / desire for the "poison" will subside leaving you feeling sooo much better with clearer thinking, less and less guilt - (nothing now to feel guilty about just better times ahead) and far better health in general.

Well done and please keep it up!

Best Regards

Bringeroflight

[Help_]

Great post and lovely comments! I am at the point of seeking another dc.I am an alcoholic and have been for 2 years. All day and night till I comer. My body goes into shock and shakes if I don't have a drink for a few hours. Can't wait for this to be me !

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[RubyBeans]

Hi Help

I know I am replying 3 years on but felt compelled to ask if you are ok? Did you get the support you need to stop drinking? I really hope you did.