Pretending I was never depressed?

[arrgent]

I was just wondering if anyone had experience with this... I don't really have much of a support network. I have BPD and PTSD and regularly have mood swings that take me from extreme highs to lows. It's usually pretty situational, but lately I've been having lows regardless of what's happening and then just coming out of them. But, what happens when I come out of my lows it feels like they never happened. It's almost like a switch was turned on and I can see clearly again. I'll be laying on my couch, feeling like my world is ending, then almost instantly I sit up and feel like I can conquer the world again? There doesn't seem to be a trigger to this, but does anyone have experience with this and can offer me some advice? I feel like it makes me look like I'm faking.

[White_Rose]

Dear Arrgent

Welcome to Beyond Blue. May I ask one question? When you say BPD do you mean Borderline Personality Disorder or Bi Polar Disorder. It makes a difference in the origin of your moods.

Bipolar as I understand it does have these sudden mood swings.

Do you have any professional help? If you have a diagnosis I presume you must be receiving help. I am sorry I cannot give you huge help but I want you to know I wish you well and hope you find an answer for your mood swings.

Mary

[arrgent]

Hi Mary,

Thanks for replying. I've been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. It's why lately I've found it weird because usually it's so situational (I can pinpoint it to the second that my moods switch based on an event or action, person or anything), but lately it seems to come from nowhere and last longer? Really unusual if I'm being honest.

I've got a therapist who I see, but it's not as regular as I like. I'll ask my psychiatrist when I see them. I appreciate your help!