Plan B - women?!

[Debzmites]

I'm 36 in October, single and struggle with depression, anxiety and BPD. I'm still trying to clear debt and don't think I have anything to offer a make or family. I'm just starting to think maybe it's time to give up hopes of a family and starting to think what are things to plan and aim for if this is the case? Anyone else faced this situation?

[Debzmites]

i constantly feel like I should be doing something, anyone else feel like this? I've already booked 5 flights for interstate matches, ice hockey ticket in Sydney in June, I'm going to see kinky boots in a couple weeks. I'm still debating seeing Justin Bieber in concert. Then I get upset because I wish I had someone to go with, then I get annoyed because I like to have good seats so instead of trying to find someone who likes to have the more expensive tickets I just go alone. Aaarrrrgggghhhhh I just wish I could get a career going or some kind of work.

Anyways, that's my rant. I'm going back to see my Dr tomorrow, even though I saw him last week and didn't say much. I've desperately need someone to talk to, I figured I just need to be honest and tell him where I'm at. I thought he would have seen it last week but clearly he didn't or surely he would have said something.

Anyways, nite.

[velvetfaerie]

Debzmites:

Yes I am exactly the same.... I am all go until I fall in a heap.

My theory is it is my bipolar mind on overdrive during the time of needing to be constantly moving/doing things.

Do you keep the motion going because of anxiety? Just a random thought.....

Chae

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[Debzmites]

Hey Chae

id agree it's my anxiety. Anxiety has always been my main problem, it's as though I'm not accomplishing things regarding work and career so if I keep myself busy doing all these adrenaline junky things and going to events and travel then it's ok, coz at least I'm doing interesting things.

Had a talk to my Dr, he pointed out I am not worthless and irrelevant, the law I was challenging is stupid. It's still so frustrating, even the registrar said the legislation applies to 95% of the population nicely, but I'm in the 5% that it doesn't. Hurts.

Anyways, I'm feeling better. I start seeing a new Psychologist Monday and I have seen him 3 times already whilst an inpatient so I already know I really like him, it will really help.

Gotta keep positive, somehow hahaha

deb

[velvetfaerie]

I totally understand...

Just keep swimming...... Just keep swimming....

**hugs**

Chae.